January 1, 2011
Hello faithful readers!! I’m sorry for not being a faithful writer. I’m also sorry for the lack of New Years post. 2010 was one heck of a year and I did actually write about 3 blogs but ended up deleting them all because I couldn’t quite capture what I wanted to say about it. There is ample time for that, however. There is not ample time to tell you that I am leaving for Haiti in 2 hours! I’m going with 7 other students from the BCM and we will be there for one week. We plan to do a sports camp for the kids, but the plans are still up in the air until we get there. I know that God is going to do some amazing stuff on this trip. I know because I am completely at His mercy, and have no power without Him. I’m tired and out of shape and have never packed so lightly in my life and feel completely ill-fitted for this trip at the moment. I was a little worried a few days ago, but inspired by Platt’s Radical and Paul I’m realizing that the weaker I am the better. As Paul writes,
“My grace is all you need. My power works best in weakness.’ So now I am glad to boast about my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ can work through me. That’s why I take pleasure in my weaknesses, and in the insults, hardships, persecutions, and troubles that I suffer for Christ. For when I am weak, then I am strong.” -2 Corinthians 12:9-10
The weaker I am, the more I will depend on God’s strength and power and the power of the Holy Spirit is beyond our wildest imagination. I cannot wait to see what He has in store for the week!
Please keep the team in your prayers next week!
Please delight in my inability. Though I fear weakness, I know it is irrelevant and You will move and do Your will despite me.
Bring me face to face with my need for You. I know I need You, that is very obvious, but I still try to stand on my own two feet and draw from my own strength. Weaken me and leave me completely dependent on You.
Demonstrate to me Your ability to provide everything we need in ways I can’t even imagine. Leave us with no doubt in Your power and glory.
Make nothing of us and make much of Your name in everything we do.
Bring me to the end of myself so that I may choose to trust in Your extraordinary provision. Make us radically devoted to making much of You and make us radically dependent on You, so that we may realize Your awesome power.
There are so many gifts I want to ask you for: energy, strength, patience, wisdom..but I only need You. Please grant us the Holy Spirit and all the power that comes with the Spirit so that we can see Your purposes accomplished.
Rather than asserting myself next week as I so often do on these trips, teach me to crucify myself. Instead of dreaming about all I could accomplish, show me all that You can accomplish beyond my wildest dreams.
Give me a radical desperation for the power of the Spirit.
Go ahead of us now and start moving in Haiti. Shake the nation and heal the people. That they may come to know love, not turmoil. Healing, not destruction. Grace, not devastation.
In Your name,