March 1, 2010
Hi, nice to meet you. It’s been a while. The lack of blogging in February was not due to the lack of things to write about..moreso due to the overwhelming amount to ponder, but the lack of time, motivation, and words in which to shape those thoughts. So sorry. And don’t get too excited, because I did not suddenly find those words, and I am going to continue to keep those thoughts to myself. I did, however, stumble upon a prayer during Rock U tonight that was written by Francis Chan that I would like to share with you because it expresses what I often cannot and I am confident that you will connect to it in some way as well.
“Jesus, I need to give myself up. I am not strong enough to love You and walk with You on my own. I can’t do it, and I need You. I need You deeply and desperately. I believe You are worth it, that You are better than anything else I could have in this life or the next. I want You. And when I don’t, I want to want You. Be all in me. Take all of me. Have Your way with me.. Begin in mercy a new work of love within me. Say to my soul, “Rise up my love, my fair one, and come away.: Then give me grace to rise and follow Thee up from this misty lowland where I have wandered so long.”
Ta-ta for now, Jenna.